I have made a major decision. I’m quitting my job and staying home. Reasons?
1. I’m 43 and my kids are 12, 14 and 15
2. We can finally afford it
3. If not now then when?
In the past I have always been the family bread winner. Through divorce and a short second marriage I held it together and kept my family financially afloat. What I didn’t do was cultivate my inner voice. I was a some what crafty, Martha-esque young woman in my earlier years. I made wreaths for every season to decorate my front door. I decorated for every holiday. My first home was completely coordinated rich jewel tones of a hunting lodge with cherry furniture and a plaid couch. It looked like a English country hunting lodge. I had china, crystal, and fancy stainless for to eat and drink from when dining on special occasions. I planned meals, not everyday meals but events with my family and friends. You get the picture? Baby one then baby two slowed the creative juices a bit but also added another layer. Now I had them to focus on. I scrap booked every moment. I made not only clothes but blankets. I decorated their rooms. I even made baby food. Then my husband lost his job. Within that same month I was offered my first nursing managerial job. It seemed over night that I was put in the hot seat. It was 40 plus hours a week and 24/7 call. I didn’t mind doing what need to be done for my family. We needed to eat, pay bills and keep our health insurance. The kids dad was off for 9 months before finding a job. I remember the utter relief I felt. Two incomes again, yay!
The thing was I had changed. I worried about money all the time. I stayed in the job. What if something happened and he lost his job again or what if I lost mine? We had no nest egg. We had used up what little we had managed to save during the time he wasn’t working. Something did happen. My unit closed. But before you fret I wasn’t out of a job. I was instead of being out of work offered another management position. This one was managing 50 plus full time employees. I remember the conversation I had with myself. This is a great opportunity and if you don’t take it you will never know if you can do it. Well I took it on and found out I could do it. But what was the price?
I definitely lost my Martha status. I worked, worked , worked and then I came home and worked. I continued to do so through a divorce, a second disastrous marriage which didn’t last long and then I met my Tony. He has inspired me to again try to be who I am. We were married a year and a half ago. Since that time he has done wonders with his job as a car sales man. I know what you are thinking. shyster! He isn’t. What he is, is a hard worker. He has made a reputation for his self as an honest salesman. It’s because of him I am writing this today. He works hard to support our family and he has seen the glimpses of my creative side. I told him I wanted to write and he said go for it. I have a voice and I am putting it out there to be heard. I have so many things I want to do.
Decorate my home.
Remodel the kitchen.
Write this blog.
Writ a book.
SPEND TIME WITH MY FAMILY!
You name it. If it’s domestic I want to do it. I’m so ready for this. Wish me luck. I’ll be checking in and posting my progress as a newbie stay at home chic. That’s it I want to make staying at home chic! Hope to see you again soon.