Wow, decision made. Now what to do? Just getting to this point has been daunting in the decision-making process, liberating because I’m feel free in a sense and honestly a bit scary. In the back of my mind, “What if I suck at this?” Failure in anything is scary to me. It always has been. What if my ‘epic’ is an epic fail? When I work I have focus, a schedule and regular(ish) hours to keep. I’m accountable to my work, boss, patients and to the hospital. Now it won’t be that way. Well it won’t unless I reframe my mind-set and make it so. Structure is key. So I need a plan.
These areas I believe are key to helping me stay focused and stay on track with my day and not end up vegged out in front of the TV eating ice-cream daily.
Regular hours especially during the week. I kept them while employed full-time. Besides my kids will need to be dropped off at school and my husband is up early daily anyway making his trek to the car lot. This isn’t a vacay for moi. It’s just a change in work locale and in my focus.
Continuing to present myself as I always have. I have heard and read about women who no longer bother to get ready to meet the day since there’s no one to get ready for. They take the kids to school in pjs or sweats. I’m not talking about VS cute sweats either. I’m talking hole in the knee I wouldn’t be caught dead in them kind of sweats. I have ranted on FB about pajama pants are not to be worn in public for years! Also leggings are not pants! That’s a topic for another day. FOCUS. First I believe we have ourself to get ready for. It is a shame to think I did all my primping to go to the office just for someone else. It is as if we don’t value our appearance for the sake of looking nice. Someone else has to see me for me to value my appearance? NO! This mind-set simply won’t cut it.This is my stance. I believe how I present myself says everything about how I feel about my self. I have value and I will continue to put my best face forward and have a workable stay at home wardrobe that will not look as if I’m running to the gym, well unless I really am running to Zumba or something.
I will revise my wardrobe. I don’t need to be quite so formal at home. My heels and suits aren’t really what I envision for my attire going forward. This revision is going to consist of some heavy editing. I’ll donate, resale and eBay the items I no longer need and keep those that will work. I need to look presentable and my wardrobe will reflect my sense of style.
A schedule for the week will help keep me on track. This needs to include: cleaning, errands, laundry, writing time, creative time and reading time from my Bible. Food shopping and planning will need to be included along with workout schedule too. Something along the lines of a daily plan will help this along. I’ve looked on Pinterest for ideas from other stay at home moms. There are plenty of great organized women who blog and share their tips to borrow from. (And, I thank them!)
I love my husband and kids so much. I pray my staying at home will benefit them and our lives will have a greater sense of order and peace. Yes I said peace. Chaos doesn’t breed peace and for a long time I have felt my life has been lived at a low-level of chaos. I believe a mom is the center of her family. My level of peace and calm and how I handle our everyday lives are felt my every member of my house. Being the go to rattled person doesn’t cut it. And since I’m the go to girl not only in my immediate family but in my extended family as well I have some reframing to do. I’m cool with this. I welcome peace. I welcome the work ahead of me to bring order from my chaos. I welcome balance. Bring on my planning session.