let’s talk about biopsies, waiting, and results…

It’s been a long week dear friends, a very long week.  But hey, it’s Saturday morning.  I can hear birds singing, the sun is coming up, and I have coffee in front of me.  So nice.  Life is good.  I had an eventful week, and this post is more than anything helping me to process it.

 

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A selfie while waiting. 

 

Biopsies, well, let’s just say there are at least ten other things I can name at any given moment I’d rather do.  They, however, are necessary when something looks fishy on the ole mammogram.  I had a stereotactic biopsy on Wednesday.  Basically, you are positioned on a table with the offending breast hanging through a hole.  Yeah, it’s as weird as it sounds, but gravity’s pull helps get the boobage where it’s easier to manipulate.  Mammogram shots are taken so the suspicious area is located.  Better get a good sample the first time, right?  Using the machine helps especially in a case like mine where there isn’t a lump to guide the  doc.  So, where was I?  Oh yes, the doctor came in and got to work.  First, he deadened the area with an injection of lidocaine.  I was sorta numb rather quickly.  Next, a little incision is made so a big ass needle can go in for the tissue sample.  I couldn’t see what was going on, but it felt like a vice grip had a hold of my breast.  Seriously that’s the image that came into my mind from what I was able to feel.  So I’m lying prone, my breast in a hole letting a vice squeeze the crap out of it. wth?  Fight or flight was kicking in about then.  Thankfully my parasympathetic nervous system didn’t take over. (Imagine me jumping up, naked from the waist up, running from the room screaming my head off while waving my arms above my head. hmm, meanwhile back on Earth…)  Actually,  I was perfectly still, well, aside from breathing.  Once a sizeable specimen was retrieved, and the doctor made sure some of the calcifications were present, I was slowly sat up, then laid right back down.  I was clammy, dizzy, and my ears started to ring.  Maybe my response was a little more intense than I thought, lol.  Once I got passed the whole embarrassing, yes I’m a nurse, but I’ll pass out on ya scenario,  a small compression dressing was applied, and I got an icepack in the bra for the rest of the day.  My breast was sore, but I was able to work.  I was instructed to do no heavy lifting on that side and expect some bruising. Overall the experience was maybe a three on the scale of 1 to 10 of unpleasant crap I never want to do again.

Results should be available in two days.  Two long days.

I got the results Thursday evening.

I have breast cancer.

Damn it.

I don’t want to do this.

So, what’s next?   I have an appointment with my ob/gyn on Monday.  We will go from there.  I have been doing some reading.  I know this was found early.  It’s a well-documented kind of breast cancer. The more that’s known about a diagnosis in the medical world, the better we get at treating it.

Here’s  what I know. I’m young.  I’m in the best physical shape I’ve been in over the last 20 years.  I have faith in God, and I draw strength from him.  I have tons of support. I’m ready to fight.  Let’s do this.

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Coffee, Daisies, and Chocolates,

holly

 

 

 

 

 

 

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4 thoughts on “let’s talk about biopsies, waiting, and results…

  1. This is another testiment to your strenght & Courage. You will do what is necessary with grace & determination & in the end you will come out of this life experience & test, a healed & healthy lady that your family & friends will be in awe…You will be able to be an example of what Your faith & your God & the doctores can do when you All agree as one. You will be Healed ! I promice to do anything You ask of me to help you & your family get thru this & I will keep you In my dailey thoughts & Prayers! I love you & apperciate you more than you know. Stay Strong, You can do this !

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  2. I love u so much!! I’m so proud of u and ur strength!!! I love ur blog, and how real u are with ur thoughts , emotions, feelings. U inspire and help me and I’m sure u do that for many others… Ur right, Ur strong , u got this!!! Love and prayers!!! Here anytime u need!! Xoxo
    Manda

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  3. Baby I am so sorry. I am there for you. Let me know what I can do along way to help you. Love you much and will pray my heart out for you. God bless my girl. He will bring you thru this. See you soon, sweetheart.

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  4. I don’t know you and I don’t even remember how I came to start reading your blog, but I am a sister in Christ so I will be praying for you!! Just from reading your blog I know that you are a very strong woman and you will kick cancers butt just like you have other things!!

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